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« on: 2002-01-13 08:19:00 »
Actually, I cried just now. I really did. I was just changing my password and I saw these. My friends who were beside me were also very shocked. They were very angry at Qhimm. Well, like what I said in many earlier posts, I've changed. As you have noticed, the most recent posts are not as stupid as the previous ones. Are the admins blind? Well, can't blame them. Many people in this world can't handle change. The reason why I posted spam was because I got bad test results, and so I did that. Now, I'm out of that. In previous years also, I was naive and I thought I know everything so I posted. But now, I'm a diffrent person and I've thrashed my life at school(A couple of girls hate me because they thought that I kicked up their friends skirt on purpose which I accidently did) and home(my dad even threatened to leave the house when I pissed him off)
My dad forgave me and the girls, of course did not gave me even a tiny chance. I'm a real loser, right?
Now, it seems that I've thrashed my life in this board too. Looks like I'm not sharing my account with anyone else and my friends will NOT be posting here anymore. Nathan really works for Square, so he can't post here using his own account in case someone tells his boss. I share my account with another two, Larry and Wei-Xiang, meaning that there is 4 people using Joey. The other two, well, their dad(they are brothers) forbids them to use the messageboard because of the previous posts. So, they come to my house to post messages here. They saw what happened to my account as I phoned them and they said sorry and promised not to use my account.
Just now, Nathan and Elise was by my side when I burst into tears as I really didin't imagine that I was such a gigantic loser. This is most probally my last post, I've removed it from the favourites menu.
I loved this board a lot and of course, it pains me a lot when I see the moron and the delete button on my posts. Well, I'll be blocking emails from everyone from this board next as I'm really broken-hearted and sad, reminding me of all of my failures. Joke? I don't think so.
Right now, this is most probally what everyone think:
YAHOO!!! That SOAB Joey is finally leaving this board!!!!! Let's uncork the champange and throw a party!!!!
If they can do this to me, that's most probally what is in their minds.
Other posters, like Alhexx, Saint and Darkness also post almost the same content. But, why am I being treated like this?
Maybe I'll use the computer less. Maybe if they remove all those nasty things that follow up with my posts, maybe I'll be back. Maybe....maybe.....
Mod? Admin? Yes, I confess that I'd like to be those last year or two. But no longer. I've learned my mistakes, I've seen myself, and decided that I'm a nobody, a jerk and a loser.
Maybe, when I was young, I was ridiclued by my classmates and I did all kinds of stupid things to get their attention. Maybe, I'm doing it here too.
I was sucidal as no one would forgive for what I did. I need pysicatric treatment. But I didin't. Maybe you all might finally understand why am I like that. Elise and Nathan left about half an hour ago, as I'm OK. About 2 years ago, I lost my best friend. He suddenly hate me. I didin't know why because I always thought I was perfect.
Why must this happen only to me? Why must I be the scapegoat for the other bad posters here? Why? I always get the blame for the things that I didin't do, why?
Sometimes that I just wish that I was in somewhere else, where there are nicer people, rather that being imprisoned in this hell in disguise, in this filthy and diseased body, in this cruel world. I don't belong here.
I thought that Qhimm was nice, but now I know that I was wrong.
Lastly, I'd like to say sorry If I made anyone mad, especially to Qhimm for thrashing this message board. I've decided to die.
I won't post here anymore. Goodbye.
Eventually, or right after this post, someone will post something like "finally, that f***er is out forever, good!!!" or something like that.