@bear : No sorry, I'm not... I really did but I'm not sure anyone here be proud of me. I am of myself but I'm sure some of you might be disapointed.
Has your parents done anything to punish you? Seriously, if your parents are still letting you on the computer to brag about hitting a girl, then they obviously fail at parenting. I'd stick your ass in counseling if you were my kid. Maybe that will help your suicidal tendencies and anger management. And then you get on here and say you're proud of what you did. Really? I bet you feel like a big strong man huh. You feel like hitting that girl has solved ALL your problems, is that right? Let me tell you something boy, they've only just begun.
I grew up seeing my father beat my mother a lot. When I see or hear about a guy harming a girl in any way it angers me because it brings back the memories of my abusive father. No woman should be treated like the way my mother was treated. Even if the woman is the one at fault, you should never hit her. Try talking it out, if it doesn't work then just ignore her. Violence is usually never the answer.
And how old are you? 13? 14? You aren't going to commit suicide, that's just a cry for attention because apparently you aren't getting enough from your family or friends. I always said that shit when I was your age, hoping to get people to notice me. Now when I hear people say it usually they're just bluffing, like you.